Mar 29, 2011

I CAN BE STRONGER YET!


BoulderActive 2011 came and went. I think that performance-wise, it's one of my best efforts by far. Too bad that I slipped off the last hold for Qualifiers Problem 5 - I would have made the finals as the 7th ranked climber otherwise. But there are too many 'what-ifs' in life. This is a competition, and the best man wins (in this case the most worthy 8 competitors qualify). As it is with life, you often only get one chance to prove your worth. I'm not good enough.. yet.


I suppose how I can value add to climbers is to share the thoughts running through my mind as I was attempting the problems. This could help novice climbers boost their own performance, as well as let me reflect on what I've done well, and what I can do better. Climbers are discouraged from taking my words lock, stock and barrel. Inste
ad, they are encouraged to seek dissenting opinions to form their own conclusions. I feel the process of discourse cements our philosophy together better.

The STS introduction by Kiat and Cassandra was highly entertaining for me. I grinned and was reminded of how it all started. Hwa and me went to KL for a gay buddy training trip (non-stop climbing for 4 days at Camp5 and Putrajaya Challenge Park). We were talking about how Singapore lacks a climbing academy for strong climbers to gather, share ideas and train hard together. Ideally, there would be no politics or unhappiness, just the single-minded pursuit of excellence in the sport. The goal of the group will never be to convince or coerce. It is merely for highlighting the plight of promising climbers, and provide an avenue for fruitful interactions. I thought such an entity would be impossible and sat on my hands. Hwa had no such reservations, getting down to setting up a facebook group, inviting several psyched climbers to join. All credit should go to him should there be any success from this little venture.

The double whistle jolted me from the train of thoughts. It was time for the first climber to take the stage - me. The rousing applause from the crowd can be both intimidating yet str
angely pleasurable. A balance has to be wrought here. Not let the crowd get to you (and thus affecting the concentration) but also learn to channel that positive energy into movement on the wall. To become a good competition climber, one must learn to live the crowd.


LOOK AT THE CROWD
(photo by chris xie)


I slipped off the starting foothold on the first move of Problem 1. Immediately realising that to
hold it as an undercling (plus stepping a small foothold with the left leg and smearing hard with the right leg) would require body tension beyond my current ability, I switched to a frontal loading position. The effect was positive. I managed to finish the problem with relative ease, leaving me with a good 5 minutes left on the clock to rest for Problem 2.


getting down to business on problem 1
(photo by chris xie)


Problem 2 was a deviously tricky. Only 2 out of the 60 competitors managed to finish it. I ackno
wledge that without sufficient competition exposure, problems such as this will continue to be beyond me. Case in point: I instinctively tried to squeeze my body into the side wall and then scramble up, but my beta was completely flawed. Instead, I was supposed to tolerate the barn door, bring the left foot up onto the handhold, tension against the volume to get some leverage, and then jump for my dear life to a small hold on the top of the volume. Such a counter-intuitive, yet elegant, solution. No amount of traditional training will ever allow me to complete that problem within the allocated time span of 3.5 minutes. To get stronger, I must widen my exposure.

I was satisfied with my performance on Problem 3, managing to finish it on my second attempt. On my first try, I tried to counter tension the barn door to the big green slope
r, but the force exerted on my body is unimaginable. That Obi did it so easily during the demo climb reveals a core toughened by years of training. Thankfully, I relied on a toe hook to enable me to hit sloper slowly. Change the toe hook to a step off a screw-on, heel hook the side wall and then slap for the blue sloper on the side wall. Sounds easy? Heh.. Read my original/unedited sentence: (Slowly) change the toe took to a step off a (minuscule) screw-on, heel hook the (bare) side wall and then slap (desperately) for the blue sloper on the side wall (with all your might, all the while tension-ing the entire body!) Each move was precarious and dicey, any lost of focus for even one nano second would have you spitted off the wall. I even had to resort to a face smear for that extra friction!


face smear!
(photo by zul)

But the problem wasn't quite done yet when you reach the blue sloper. I tried a frontal lock to the ending hold, but as I got nearer and nearer to the hold I felt more and more like falling off. Locking harder obviously wasn't the solution for me. I eased down back to the blue sloper, composed myself and tried locking again, this time twisting my left knee to the right. I grabbed the ending hold and HOORAY.. What I lack in strength I try to make up for in cunning!


forbidden jutsu: the drop knee

victory pose after finishing problem 3!
(photos by junwei)

Even though I
didn't finish Problem 4, I was most proud of my attempts there. Problem 4 involved a span move to two reasonable-sized holds and then finding the feet before launching off on a redonkulous dyno to a purple ass-shaped tile. Alright, perhaps I'm exaggerating but for a short climber like myself, coupled with the fact that dyno-ing has been my perennial weakness, it was really a big jump for me. Upon getting into the position to crouch for the jump, the handhold just seems miles away. The mind starts to play tricks on you. To be able to do the move, your self-belief cannot for a moment waver. Lucky for me on my third attempt, I gathered up all the energy and exploded to the hold, latching it! Whoopie!


RAWR after latching the dyno

(photo by junwei)

Despite not being able to finish the problem, I was immensely pleased at having surpassed personal boundaries. I still remember throwing a tantrum at PumpFest 09 because a dyno move kept eluding me.
If it's any gauge of my improvement at all, climbers like Ponti and Zam also took three tries to latch the dyno. Looks like I've really come a long way since the days of being a static climber who can't jump.

I slipped off the last hold for Problem 5 and this mistake cost me a place in the finals. I feel like I've let the people who believed in me down. Patxi Usobiaga lamented before: all that training is lost with one slip of the foot. Today, I can safely say I know how badly it hurts.

I take this failure very seriously. I will come back stronger. Enough said.



me on the problem 5
(photo by chris xie)


On a lighter note, I'm very inspired by this Pinoy climber who specially flew in to participate in this competition. Others gravitate towards Obi-san and Ponti, but for some reason I take to Amiel. His climbing is precise and clinical, and he bursts with bridled/controlled energy when moving from hold to hold. He is a master at engramming moves, never making the same mistake twice, always able to repeat a move once he has done it. I was most impressed with his ability to latch the dyno of Problem 4 again and again. The fan boy in me just had to take a picture with him :)


same victory pose no less!

(photo by celine)

Woe is me that he didn't manage to qualify for the finals (he ranked 9th - must have been even more painful for him). Watching him crush all the 3 problems (in the free climb time that was allocated to other competitors after the finals) just further convinced me of his skill. He shares a similarity with other top climbers - they've all climbed for 10 years and more, reinforcing my theory that to become a top climber, first and foremost you must love the sport. The motivation must be intrinsic - nobody can force-feed you a 'motivation pill'. Only then will you stay around long enough to be a sensei.

I wish for myself to become one eventually.. but till then, I'll be happy just to pose for a photo with my favourite climber of the entire competition!

Mar 12, 2011

Memorandum of Understanding


I'M A SPONSORED ATHLETE NOW WHOOPIE!!!


Ok please ignore the above, it was totally out of character. But do pardon me as there was no other way to express the pure delight except by using uppercase and several exclamation marks.

As of 12/03/2011, I am a sponsored climber with ClimbAsia, dedicated to carrying their brands and flying their flag.

I've always loved the ClimbAsia story - 3 friends at crossroads in their lives, coming together and starting a climbing gym from scratch. Although the original place was constructed into a small dingy shophouse (with a dark and ulu alley entrance no less!), it was assembled with much love. A place built by climbers for climbers, it was where I spent my formative years (read: getting spanked damn hard by the likes of old timers like Thomas, Chuan, Weida, etc)* in climbing. I would rush down to the place after school to watch my climbing heroes crush hard, and it wasn't uncommon to see me with eyes starry and mouth agape. ClimbAsia has since grown from strength to strength, shifting to a much bigger place at the Civil Service Club, seeing a packed gym at nights, and distributing premier rockclimbing brands now.

Initially I was apprehensive about the whole sponsorship thing. I simply felt I wasn't good enough, acknowledging the fact that there are many climbers who climb much harder than me. My performance during competitions is also somewhat erratic. By some random stroke of luck, I actually managed to get myself ranked as the 2nd Singaporean in Singapore Bouldering League for two consecutive years (09 and 10). But I'm under no illusion to think that I'm superior to those veteran climbers who either chose to abstain, or were unable to attend for some reasons. Some people may think I'm crazy for not jumping at the opportunity immediately. What?! Don't be stupid. Just take it lah! Still need to consider meh? But I adopt a principled stand: doing a good job in whatever endeavour I pursue. It is my personal insistence on being responsible, even at the expense of missing out on a privilege like this. Accepting the sponsorship, but only to bomb out at competitions, just smacks of poor character. Such dishonourable acts leaves a bad aftertaste in the mouth.

After I voiced my concerns to the management, they reassured me. Like every other sponsorship, there will necessarily be strings attached. No doubt competition performance is good to have, but it is not compulsory for them. What's most important for them is that the sponsored climber is a good ambassador for the brand, which entails aspects other than purely performance. I am grateful for that, and promise to do my utmost to repay their faith in me.

When I recounted being offered this sponsorship to a friend, his reply was Wow Jansen I'm really happy for you! Your ambition since JC finally coming true!
To which my reply was Huh? Since when did I covet a sponsorship? I don't recall! We disputed whether I really articulated the said objective as my dream. But no matter, a friendly argument fades into insignificance upon contemplative reflection. On hindsight, I didn't chase climbing because I wanted a sponsorship. I pursued excellence in climbing because I'm attracted to the intensity. For me, it is a form of moving mediation. I didn't focus on securing a sponsorship, I focused on perfecting the skill (no doubt I still fall short by any yardstick). The moral of the story is as follows. Focus on the task at hand, and the result will follow. Focus on the result, and often you fail at the task.

I hope to continue to grow together with ClimbAsia, as I've done so for the past 7 years :)

*For the record, I still am being spanked hard by them. Sigh.. some things never change.. and I'm happy for that!

Mar 4, 2011

I hate that


I learned something recently: our true friends are those who are with us when good things happen. They cheer us on and are pleased by our triumphs. False friends only appear at difficult times, with their sad, supportive faces, when, in fact, our suffering is serving to console them for their miserable lives. When things were bad last year, various people I had never ever seen before turned up to console me. I hate that.

- The Zahir by Paulo Coelho

This paragraph totally echoed what I felt in an earlier episode when I 'ranted' about people coming up to console me when I failed to qualify for the finals of a climbing competition. Perhaps Paulo's choice of words (I hate that) were too harsh. But I also have that same aversion against people consoling me, it makes me feel small and weak.