this post is dedicated to PCKK

had the talk with the team some mondays back. aired my (perhaps flawed) views and hope that some of it (the unflawed views) will hopefully be internalized in the coming semesters. and training will improve. otherwise, i'm walking. i am resolute.

throughout the entire particularly trying period, my brothers have been a pillar of strength. yixiong for meticulously and methodologically listing out the pros and cons of my course of action. zhijian for his ability to pierce the veil of fuzzy thinking and elucidate cogent observations. bernard for his ever dependable i-understand-what-you-are-going-through remarks.

we are made from the same paper (Bernard Kho, 2009). this particular statement struck a chord within me because it highlights just how much we have gone through together. from hard training together to post training bonding sessions slurping cheng teng; from gay-only climbing trips (not by choice) to cranking hard at climbing competitions, these are the people who have walked a sizeable spectrum of the climbing circle with me and understand my rationales best.

of course not forgetting felicia. for being ever patient. and for standing by a sometimes driven-till-unbearable extent boyfriend. for reading and re-reading draft 1,2...10 of my little talk. i penned it to make sure every word made an impact. i certainly hope they did.

the bottomline is truly this: i dont want to talk cock, i just want to climb hard.

glad that this entire rather uncomfortable saga is now a thing of the past. next up are exams and then it's off to hampi for a rocktrip! my first purely bouldering trip! am really looking forward to attempting the routes featured in pilgrimage.

on a sidenote, i qualified for my first open men difficulty climbing finals at rockon09! am psyched to work even harder.


Benjamin Franklin: If Passion drives, let Reason hold the reins.