Feb 5, 2010
prisoner of a white god 2
close to one year's worth of relationship.. means nothing in the face of religion. those times spent getting to know each other, staying over at each other's houses, competing together and cheering each other on, going on rock trips together. all the little things i've done for her.. not to mention having to swallow my pride on one occasion after being innocently reprimanded by her mother. jansen ko, this blog hasnt done you any good at all. after months of reflections, you still cannot stand your ground when talking to an unreasonable adult? you are really so naive to think that keeping your cool and maintaining a harmonious relationship is a virtue? childish! immature! you appear to be more of a boy and less of a man! laughable!
jansen ko you are a fucking idiot. why you always get made use of? why are you the party that always ends up getting hurt? in the 2 previous relationships you had, it was always the girl who let you down. never once have you let a lady down. havent you fucking idiot heard of the 'once bitten twice shy' adage. you better stop being a wuss and start learning how to protect your heart. chivalry is dead. all hail the casanova.
you've been crying for close to 2 days now. get a hold of yourself bro! it's ok jansen. you know that deep down inside, you are a good man. you might not be more religious than certain people, but you are certainly more educated, more well-read, more sensible, and definitely more disciplined than most who align themselves to certain faiths. time will heal all wounds. you are made of sterner stuff than this. pay more attention to your first love, for she has to date rewarded your every effort.
the night she came back from putra.. i wanted to surprise her at her house.. waited for close to 30mins but she was off having supper with some other person.. after that i was so hurt.. i was so lost.. i drove around singapore aimlessly for 45 minutes.. i didnt even know where i was driving.. but she doesnt know.. she doesnt know..
do not do unto others what you do not wish to be done onto yourself. haha. hah.
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Well your perspective is wrong in most things in that paragraph but you are right about something: time will heal all wounds. Hang in there, don't forget what makes you tick, remember your friends and you'll be just fine.
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Hi Claudia,
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Hey sorry for the late reply :) I think your perspective is wrong because u should not compare yourself with other people - in the being more educated, more sensible, more disciplined and so on ... This is a very deceptive way to go. You are who you are and it takes a lot of ballz to stand by that and congrats for it. Your pain is real and it is hard but it will be ok. Even more, it will be better because you will be smarter and wiser. I am finding all of this (even the VERY PUBLIC (why?!) fbook note although i understand that you need to express your pain) very hard to understand because where i come from religion/church have lost their glitz what with us being christian for a thousand years or so. To each of us own though. I do understand your need to rationalize - because this will answer the why? - but a piece of advice is to focus now on "how" - i.e. how to get back on track, how to pick up the pieces and build again.
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