Oct 6, 2009

man on a mission


I’m sorry that I’m so stupid. I take 6 modules. I’m more stupid than most people so I make up for it by studying extra hard. I’m so stupid I have to study every single day of the week. That means not being able to do ‘normal’ people stuff.

I’m sorry that I’m so weak. I climb at such a low level. I’m weaker than most other climbers so I make up for it by training extra hard. I’m pathetic, so I have to rely on a fixed training programme to boost all that little ability that I have. I made a promise to myself, and I’ll become less of a man if I fall short.

I’m sorry that I prefer to spend my time not doing ‘normal’ people stuff. I’m stupid and I’m weak and I don’t have work-life balance.
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6 comments:

  1. vjc climberOctober 10, 2009 at 11:13 PM

    you're not weak. everybody just have different approaches in pursuing their goals. perhaps you shouldnt put yourself down with such demoralising words. so what if you think you're weak? nobody was born strong. so what if you have to rely on a fixed training programme to improve your climbing ability? if you feel this is the most suitable way to maximise your potential, then just go ahead with it and you really dont have to worry about how others look at you.
    at the end of the day when you get stronger, you'll be glad you were disciplined and determined and believed in yourself.

    and so what if you have to study every single day and you take more modules than others? that doesnt mean you're stupid, you're just willing to work hard and there's really nothing wrong about that.

    as cliche as the above sounds, it is often very true. afterall, isnt life about learning to enjoy what one does?

    allez!

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  2. namelessOctober 11, 2009 at 7:33 PM

    Hi Jansen,

    I have been following your blog for sometime.. This is because I admired you in a sense, you are pursuing your passion despite the busy schedule one has in uni life.. Not everyone can do it.. I myself is so caught up with school work that I neglected my passion etc.. AND YET, my results are not really good.. Quite CMI..

    So I wanna encourage you to continue pursuing your interests. Results are not everything, just as long as you try your best.. Don't be demoralized, can yourself you can, and YES, you can!

    Regards..

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  3. jansen koOctober 12, 2009 at 12:27 AM

    hi vjc climber and nameless,

    thank you for your very encouraging remarks. been in somewhat of a rough patch lately. it happens when work piles up - looming deadlines of projects and assignments. doesnt help to have received disparaging remarks about my lack of work-life balance.

    my bad habit has always been to put undue stress on myself. 'take it easy' doesnt come easy for me.

    nevertheless, i do thank you for your support! they go a long way into helping me tide over this tough time!

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  4. UnknownOctober 12, 2009 at 1:00 AM

    Sia la. got ppl follow ur blog leh. U got fan club. Dun sad la. I give u hug (when fel's not ard). =D

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  5. Felicia LimOctober 14, 2009 at 2:32 PM

    BERNARD KHO!i am here!im watching you!!!!

    oei jansen ko.can u pls be a man and dont wallow in self pity are way stronger than this!

    no matter what, i am still here alright=)

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  6. UnknownOctober 14, 2009 at 5:12 PM

    she caught me. =( Hug u another time k. LOL.

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