hey you may not know me, but my friend showed me the letter you wrote and i admire how much time and effort you have acty put in to write this thing. after all i understand how you feel totally as i have been through it just a few months back.
other than that, i think its quite cool to know that i was from dhs and tjc as well, and soon to be in nus. that makes me your junior since a long time back. thank you so much for writing all these down as after reading it, i do feel a little better. i had once thought of doing what you did, but i know that once some things are over, they cant be changed. i was left pondering abt what i had done wrong for the next few months. until today, i am not fully over the girl although i have no choice, but to suffer in silence.
know you are the innocent one and the victim in this situation, and there isn't much you can do even though you'd want to. writing this letter down probably let you vent your disappointment, grief and anger by alot. hope you are feeling alot better after this. you have my 100% support because i have been in the same boat, and i totally cannot understand the rationale and reasoning behind their actions.
haha well hope to make a new friend with you, and if you like i could share my story with you also. then maybe if you know that there are many others like you around, you wouldn't be feeling so bad.
hope you have a great week ahead, and take good care!
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haha you dont have to feel too bad about yourself, can always find another person again. i know its hard but have to force yourself. for me is just waiting for uni start and hopefully can find someone that is definitely not christian.
yea i have been with my ex for 2 and half years before breakup. she was initially a freethinker, but converted and kena psycho-ed into church and all. when she convert i already wanted to let go cuz i know its v troublesome, but she kept assuring me that we just had to respect each other religion and all. so for 2 years, i lived with it and was totally agreeable with her going to church and doing her religious stuff. i nvr knew a problem existed until she repeatedly forced me to read the bible and to go church, of which i rejected kindly. but just like you, at the peak of our happiness, she suddenly told me to convert or breakup. and when i know i could not bear to leave her, i said i would convert for her sake. but then it was too late, she just din want me back anymore. i knew it was stupid but i think at that point of time, the most impt thing was still to keep her. now i do realise how stupid i would have been if i were to convert. living a lie for the rest of my life. ya lo that was my first ever relationship, and i was totally serious abt it, and it had to be spoilt in the hands of a christian. damn.
yup i guess ppl like us are v tolerant of other religions and beliefs, but is usually the christians that wna force this and that, and make it the no 1 ultimate supreme religion, of which i think is bullshit. god this god that, god wouldnt have caused all this if he really existed.
from that day onwards, i have a v strong anti-christian view, even though im alright hanging out with my christian friends, so long as they dont try to preach or convert me. as for the girl, i have deleted all contacts with her, and not talked to her since that day she left. i feel it will aid me better in healing rather than trying to hang on and wait. you shld too. no point keeping. well, take this as a v painful lesson learnt. you and me have learnt it the hard way.
thanks for replying man, i know you are losing weight, feeling stressed, and always thinking of it in the middle of the night. just hope i can be someone to advise and share my views so that you will be up again in no time. haha. hear from you soon again.
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